January 2009
45 posts
Might as well.
I don’t think I’ll ever leave Williamstown with a snowstorm coming down like it was. The bus driver did an admirable job but, jesus, I was wishing I had brought something to knock me out for the duration of the trip since it felt like he was driving way too fast at times. Regardless, it’s so nice to be in a city even on a dreary day like this. I’m currently passing the time...
Your time starts now.
Things to do before 9:00 AM:
go to the gym for an hour
finish packing (don’t forget the cell, laptop, or any of their cords)
tidy up your room a bit more
start thinking about that paper due before midnight today
maybe withdraw some extra money from the bank
Speaking of money, I was so happy to find nearly 20 dollars in my CD holder. The snow/wintry stuff must not prevent me from...
recovery time.
I just slept for 12 hours straight. Oops. I do feel truly rested for the first time in a while though so, eh, I can’t really feel too bad about sleeping the day away.
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2009-1-25) →
Sly & The Family Stone (42)
The Mountain Goats (36)
The New Pornographers (34)
The Hood Internet (26)
Animal Collective (21)
Imported from Last.fm Tumblr by JoeLaz
Baby, think twice. Maybe it's not all right.
I need to learn how to say no. I just want to be friends. Nothing more. You’re not really my type (if I even have a type) despite being super-duper nice. The more I think about anything serious or even anything not so serious, the more anxious I become. Ugh. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to be mean but, at the same time, I can’t handle this right now.
yay yay yay. (maybe a little tl;dr)
I’m going to take a moment to gloat in the fact that I have (from my heaviest) lost 66.4 lbs. I can hardly believe it; my body image is still pretty fucked so I can’t always tell but, hey, my pants sizes keep getting smaller so I must be doing something right. I can’t believe it. I’m 8.6 lbs away from the goal I set in late April-early May of last year. I didn’t...
Should my feminist card be revoked?
Probably not but, fuck, am I sick of having a uterus. Ovulation should not be this goddamn painful of a process. Thanks to the lovely people I live with who are still playing the drums (thankfully it’s lot quieter than it was; update: it’s stopped!) and the uncomfortable throbbing on the lower side of my abdomen, I can’t sleep even though I want and need to because I have to be...
fyi.
I really want to believe you’re a sweet girl but when you’re criticizing the President for having some nerves and not saying the oath perfectly, I really think you must be a bit of a bitch. The man is human and is undertaking an incredibly daunting job. Cry moar, all of you rabid, boorish neo-cons. Your bitter tears taste so sweet.
Even I, someone who is so often the cynic about the...
Michelle Obama is fierce, nothing new. →
Her Psychology Today. [abridged]
Things have finally stelled down a bit with my mental state and, in an even more surprising turn of events, I’m feeling tons better physically. Now if only I could find the motivation to do the German I didn’t do while I was sick this weekend, everything would be swell.
I think the day that I become (mostly) comfortable with myself is the day that I become an determinately better...
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2009-1-18) →
The Mountain Goats (100)
Ella Fitzgerald (34)
Neko Case (28)
Cat Power (15)
Caribou (10)
Imported from Last.fm Tumblr by JoeLaz
“The basis of shame is not some personal mistake of ours, but the ignominy, the...”
– Milan Kundera
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2009-1-11) →
The Mountain Goats (179)
Modest Mouse (66)
Neko Case (34)
Animal Collective (23)
The New Pornographers (23)
Imported from Last.fm Tumblr by JoeLaz
instead of sleeping. →
i am browsing the blogsphere (or whatever) + listening to boris & merzbow accompanied by the occasional antics of my compatriots in the annex. yay, loud voices, bangs, and the sound of working plumbing.
breathe, breathe, breathe.
I’ve spent too long looking for a reason for why things are. In doing so, I have not only managed to avoid the ‘way things are,’ but, in the same turn, chosen to not accept things as they are. There is a time and a place for all those sorts of existential, all-seeking questions, just not at the expense of actually living. I’m not sure if I will ever be able to completely surpress the...
idiocy.
I wish I had a sort of clarity about why I’m here. I don’t understand it. Sometimes it seems as if silly coincidences and trivialities are what solely provide me any semblance of certainty about myself and my actions thus far. I haven’t been able to escape the feeling that I don’t belong here and if I plan on staying at Williams or, really, anywhere, it needs to be...
Hm.
How I managed to walk in the snow from Susie Hopkins back to get my stuff from a friend’s room in heels, I may never know. Especially considering I was thoroughly tipsy (okay, drunk) at that point. At least I provided amusement for all those that encountered me … though the one stranger that passed me on my trek back probably was more weirded out by my drunken mumblings and ditties sung to...
Note to self.
I need to catch up with these shows on online but preferably buy them on DVD:
Breaking Bad
It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia
The Venture Brothers
Generation Kill (y/n/m?)
Weeds (maybe)
Skins
Rescue Me
Nip/Tuck
I’m tired as fuck but talking with a certain friend really brightened my night. I have Kick-Ass #5 to read along with a few other issues of other things so I’m...
lololol.
Friend: I'm about to masturbate.
Me: I'm not though …
“I need to allow myself to let go … I will be open to experiences and people as...”
– Obviously, I can’t follow my own advice to save my (social) life. I’ve only ventured out of the dorm once today to eat a late lunch.
Realizations #479 & #480
Reading WSO is often not constructive for anger management.
I’m starting to believe that I genuinely dislike interacting with people. Generally, I dread having to deal with all the inconsistencies and frustration(s) being social entails. I’m not sure if this is an innate trait or something that I’ve developed to shield myself from the almost inevitable and continuous...
people portraits (ryan plfuger) →
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I love this weather. It’s been snowing on and off (with some nasty wintery mix stuff in between at times) for a few days now. I can’t tell you how nice it was to come back and already have several inches of the stuff on the ground. Nights and days like these are pretty much the reason I decided to come to New England. I’m also tickled by the fact that cold,...
Realization #478
I’m terrible at following through especially when it’s my own advice. I think to myself, “I’m going to eat at 7.” But, with the time now 7:15 and ticking onward, I’m not in any state to be going anywhere. I say to others, “I’m going to work on x, y, and z” yet I can’t seem to get away from those things for very long. Am I unhappy in...
tl;dr
So my sweet potato biscuits must be good since Kai (the greyhound) snagged three of them like the sneaky bastard that he is. I’d take pictures but I’m lazy. I’m also glad that I have enough dough left over for three or four more biscuits. I’m proud of myself - I made those mother fuckers from scratch.
I don’t have any resolutions which may be a first (no, not...
